makeup.

There are a lot of celebrity women who are suddenly promoting going makeup-free and living a bare-faced life. All in all this isn’t a bad lesson and is something that needs to be said over and over again to people who are growing up in our filtered, photoshopped, face-tuned world. But I want to talk about it from the perspective of someone who loves makeup, and chooses to do a full face each morning… okay, most mornings.  Whether it means to or not, this movement misrepresents women who do wear makeup on the daily. Promoting a makeup-free lifestyle says more than just “love the skin you’re in,” it also implies that women who put on makeup each day do it for any reason other than just… because they like it. I have yet to meet a woman who hates makeup, yet still takes the time and money to invest in it. If a woman doesn’t want to wear makeup, she won’t – period.

Society make the mistake of thinking women wear makeup because we’re insecure. Boys make the mistake of thinking women wear makeup because we want them to think we’re pretty. Truth is, some of us just like putting stuff on our faces. As a woman who wears her paycheck in the form of matte lipsticks and winged eyeliner, here are some thoughts:

  • Some people do yoga or exercise in the mornings, but I really like taking that time to drink a cup of coffee and put on my makeup. It’s relaxing, it’s not something I have to use too much brain power to accomplish and taking that time to take care of myself sets me up to have a really good morning.
  • It’s my favourite way to express creativity. I’m not an artsy person – I can’t draw, paint, or design anything. I write sometimes but that’s not something I find the time to do a lot. So I take my creative energy out on my face. I like experimenting with different colours, textures and shapes. I like figuring out how to enhance my already usually good skin and bright eyes. It’s important to me that I have this outlet to express different parts of my personality with differently styled makeup looks – it’s fun for me.
  • I very rarely leave my house without at least a little makeup on – BB cream and brow gel for sure – but that’s not an insecurity thing. I don’t have great skin all the time, my eyebrows are funny shapes and I have a really round face that makes me look about 6 years younger than I am. These are all things that I can (and do) change with makeup but I know that there’s nothing wrong with any of it – I accept the fact that my face is not flawless. I have no problem being bare-faced in public but I’ve never been the type of person who likes to feel sloppy. I’m not a sweatpants person, I don’t own any stained t-shirts, and I do not wear running shoes outside of the gym. To me, taking 5 minutes to put on a little bit of makeup goes hand in hand with putting on a pair of jeans instead of wearing your pajama pants to run errands.
  • For the most part, the makeup industry does not pander to the preferences of men anymore. We’re seeing this a lot more with unnatural coloured lipsticks, bold highlights and extreme contour becoming popular. If we wore makeup only because boys liked it, we wouldn’t wear half of what is trendy right now. In my experience, boys don’t like blue lipstick or neon eyeshadow or huge falsies. I own all of those things, I like all of those things and if a man is going to go out of his way to tell me I’d look better without them – byeeeee. This isn’t to please you honey, it’s for me. It’s a small way for me to express who I am to the rest of the world and if who I am that day wants to wear black lipstick and bold eyebrows, well dammit I’m gonna. Sorry, not sorry.

It’s important to be comfortable with who you are, and with what you look like. It’s absolutely wonderful to have total confidence in yourself and be okay facing the word without a good foundation and concealer combination to protect you, and I would never try to discredit that message. But a solid contour game and overdrawn lipstick does not mean I am insecure with who I am. So no, I will not participate in #NoMakeupMonday. I will not post a bare-faced selfie for your natural beauty initiative on Facebook. I will not consider going makeup-free for 1 week. I like wearing makeup; I don’t find it daunting or difficult. I don’t feel pressured to look a certain way, and I don’t find your ,”look at me, I’m not wearing makeup because I’m super brave!” attitude to be at all revolutionary. You’re no different than me, except my eyelids are gold and sparkly, and my lashes hit my glasses when I blink.

torn jeans + bowler hats.

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This is quickly becoming my favourite spot. The drive to get there is lovely, especially this time of year with the colors of Autumn everywhere, and I have yet to see another living person there. It’s completely out of the way, and such a great spot to hang out with a book or play some music while enjoying what’s left of the beautiful weather for this year. As an added bonus, it’s pretty private so I don’t feel like a moron taking pictures for the blog.

The soundtrack for this photoshoot was Demi Lovato’s Confident, which was released on Friday. It’s literally all I’ve been listening to all weekend and I don’t foresee that changing any time soon. Demi’s been a longtime favourite of mine, both musically and as fashion inspiration. Her edgy, yet always classy sense of style definitely inspired this outfit.

weekend.

When my head feels too full, and I need to put myself in a grown up time-out, the best thing I can do for myself is to get in my car, put on an audiobook or some good music, and drive. I don’t need a destination, I just feel like it’s the ultimate in alone time and space.
So last weekend I got in the car, put on some Halsey and drove out of the cell phone service area. I ended up in a small valley town about 45 minutes from where I live. It’s a sleepy town with buildings that obviously haven’t been renovated since the 1940’s (and I’m being generous here). It kind of has a horror movie feel to it – like if I stopped at the (out of service) gas station at the wrong time of night, I’d absolutely get murdered by a crazy guy in a hockey mask.
I was driving along the curving highways, thinking this was a lovely way to spend a sunny afternoon. It got even better when I pulled over into a teeny shale pit off of the highway. I parked my car, pulled out a book and sat on my truck reading for hours. I was fully submerged in my book, until a cricket jumped up on the page and scared the hell out of me. Before heading home and getting away from the damn cricket, I decided to document my peaceful weekend getaway.

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You don’t need to travel far to get away – sometimes, the best ways to clear your head are close by. Explore your own back yard.

Oh, and of course, here’s a BTS look at my super professional photography setup:
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autumn (almost).

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Tea, falling leaves, sweater weather, knit beanies, knit scarves, knitting in general, really… Booties, apples, cinnamon. Oh, and of course, pumpkin everything. Aside from being the main points in my favourite bit by my homegirl Iliza Shlesinger, these are the main staples of Autumn. While I have vehemently expressed my dislike of cold weather, I must admit that, like every other girl between the ages of 15 and 28, I f*cking love Autumn. I love dressing for Autumn – boots, layers, leather, earth tones, sweater so ugly they’re considered fashionable – I’m all about that. As the weather stands right now, it’s not quite cool enough to be in full Autumn mode yet, but I’m preparing. This outfit was a baby step, but I’m so ready to go full force. This black baby doll dress is the most perfect starting point for a million different outfits, and can be taken in so many directions. The long gray duster sweater has quickly become a staple in my wardrobe, and I have loved putting it over nearly every outfit I’ve worn in the last 2 weeks. And those boots – those boots have been with me for many years, as you can tell by the scuffed toes. I paired them with this outfit because they add a slightly grungy vibe, without being overpowering or feeling out of place.

When it comes to seasons in regards to makeup, Autumn reigns supreme. Smoky shadows, intense contour, and – my personal favourite – incredible lip colours. This one in particular is a combination of MAC’s Heroine and Beet lip liners, Revlon’s Black Cherry lipstick, and the new Maybelline Color Blur lip crayon in Berry Misbehaving. In all honesty, I think I could sit at my vanity and play with lip combinations all day.

Happy almost-Autumn, everyone. Sip on that hot apple cider, eat pumpkin pie to gain your winter insulation, and get cozy if it kills you, dammit!

Photo Diary | July 2015

It is insane how easy it is to not do something. To procrastinate and put it off until you almost don’t even want to do it anymore. Of course, I am talking about me and what a lousy blogger I am. I kept making excuses for not posting and blaming my sudden lack of creativity, or the fact that it’s summer and I’m too busy having bonfires and drinking beer to write a blog post.

So now that it’s almost mid-August, I thought it would be supremely appropriate to post a bunch of photos from the month of July… starting with one from June, obviously.

001 June 26 | My baby brother graduated high school
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002 July 1 | Happy Canada Day
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003 July 4 | Girls night ft. sushi
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004 July 4 | Girls night continued ft. Magic Mike + so much wine
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005 July 9 | Boardwalkin’
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006 July 14 | The prettiest sunset you ever did see #nofilter #forrealzies
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007 July 16 | Concert + rain
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008 July 18 | I drove and drove, but I couldn’t find the end
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009 July 24 | What does it mean when people compliment “my aesthetic”?
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010 July 28 | Even the worst storms gotta end
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I’m going to make a real effort to be back, and post regularly. I have lots of ideas, I’m just bad at follow-through sometimes.

See you soon, blog.

Grandpa Cardigans: A Love Story

01I love rainy summer evenings, because it means I can break out my cozy autumn sweaters, and not feel ridiculous about it. Summer is incredible, with the sunshine and amazing smells and general feeling of freedom and happiness, but there is nothing like being wrapped in an oversized sweater that feels more like a blanket than an article of clothing. This particular blanket-sweater was recently thrifted, and I don’t know if I’ve ever been more excited about something that I purchased for $5. It’s quite a thick knit, but these adorable shorts and simple tank top made it the perfect selection to ward off the chilly breeze floating through the air.

PS – bonus photo of my dogs crashing my photoshoot.

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F A V O U R I T E S

Unless you’re a YouTube beauty vlogger, no one ever asks you, “Hey, what’s your favourite stuff right now?”, which I think is completely unfair. The amount of times I text people about insignificant things that like, ‘totally changed my life for reals though’ is ridiculous. So, while I sip wine out of a My Little Pony mug, here, have a blog post. IMG_5288Just Peachy by David’s Tea
 This tea actually came out last year in David’s Tea’s summer collection. Iced peach tea is my favourite thing to drink in the summertime, like, I can’t even tell you how much of this I could drink in a day. I was really bummed when they decided not to bring it back this year, but by some miracle 2014 Stephanie must have known this would happen, and I discovered a full cannister last month! So now I can spend another summer sipping on this and I’m probably more excited than I should be. IMG_5285Glamoflage by Hard CandyReady, Set Gorgeous by Covergirl, and Smooth Skin BB Radiance Powder by NYC
After roughly 10 years of doing makeup daily, I have finally discovered my number one, holy grail foundation combination. Despite the ridiculous names (I mean really, Glamoflage? Ready, Set, Gorgeous? Where are your standards, cosmetics companies?), I’m obsessed – for real, not in a ‘OMG I’m obsessed JK I’ll forget about this in a week’ kind of way. I have never used a better combination of foundation products – it’s not heavy, it lets my skin breathe while still having enough coverage to even out my skin tone, and the colour basically melts into my skin. It’s amazing. The best part, though? All 3 of these products can be purchased at the drugstore for under $17. Insanity! IMG_5283Mint Cocoa Crunch Mints by Saybon
Let me preface this by saying that I think the combination of mint and chocolate is straight out of hell. It’s just so wrong. These, however… I honestly don’t know what it is. These are so good. I can’t stop; We have a dish of them sitting in my office and it’s right next to my desk -the struggle is real, let me tell you. IMG_5289Romper by WalMart (I know, I was surprised too)
This is not new or revolutionary. It’s summer, it’s the season of rompers. I’ve struggled with this trend since it’s conception – I liked the idea but couldn’t get past the fact that it reminded me of a baby’s onesie. The fact that I’m 5’0 on a good day and have enough trouble looking my age is it is lead me to decidethat this trend wasn’t for me. However this year, I tried a few and was disappointed – they all seemed to be too small in the shorts-part and too poofy in the top part. But then one day, strolling through WalMart aimlessly, as you do, I happened upon this one. It was a different style from the ones I had been trying so I figured, “hey, it’s $12 – what’s the worst that could happen?” So I took it home with me and guess what? Now I have a romper that works on my awkward, boyish body. Now if I could just figure out a simpler way to pee while wearing it…IMG_5308Overcast
I’m just gonna come out and say it – I hate the iTunes podcast app. I hate it. It’s not user-friendly, and it does this thing where it will start playing the podcasts, but with no audio. What?! That’s the whole point! This app has been a lifesaver – Maybe not literally, but I love my podcasts so it’s definitely been really great to have. It works with iTunes so it has all the same podcasts, and gets new episodes at the same time, it’s just a different interface. Since switching to Overcast, I haven’t had any issues. I filed away the iTunes podcast app in my “stupid” folder and haven’t looked back since. IMG_1793Imagine Dragons
Earlier this month, I had the absolute pleasure of taking my brother to see his favourite band live. Walking into a concert venue and feeling the energy in the building – that’s my happy place. That’s the best moment to be in, no matter the band that’s playing. If you have the opportunity to go see Imagine Dragons live, take it. Even if you don’t really like them, just go. It was a mind-blowing concert. They perform so well, their light show was absolutely incredible, and I have dubbed them the Unofficial Kings of Drum Solos (a very prestigious award in my world – drummers are my favourites). Not to mention, Dan Reynolds got that white boy groove so, you have to go just to see him dance around during Shots.

There – my favourites. Thank you for letting me be narcissistic and talk about the random crap that I think is interesting.

Hey There, Stranger

Hi Blog, it’s been a minute.

I was computer-less for a few weeks, and therefore unable to tend to the blog. Not being able to hang out here and post honestly made me really anxious, and I didn’t like it! While I could still check in and read comments and stuff, it’s not the same as sitting down with your laptop and actually being able to write a post. That said, you would think I used my computer-less time to draft up a bunch of really awesome blog posts, wouldn’t you? The answer to that would be, uh… no. Oops!

To ease myself back into the wonderful world of blogging, I thought I would start with something easy – a Project 10 Pan update, as I have actually made some decent progress!

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L’Oreal Revitalift Miracle Blur Eye
Status: EMPTY
Conclusion: Does this product actually do anything? I should read some reviews and see if people actually saw results. Perhaps it’s just not meant for a person with my skin type? I’d be curious to know.

OSiS+ Dust It Mattifying Powder
Status: EMPTY
Conclusion: I think it would be a lovely product for someone with thicker hair than me. While normally, I don’t get a lot of product build up, this powder made my hair feel gross after a single use. Again, I think it’s just not targeted towards someone with my particular hair type.

NARS Orgasm Blush
Status: EMPTY
(I will admit, it broke. I went on an overnight trip last weekend, took this with me, and when I got home, most of it was shattered. I finished off the last usable pieces this week.)
Conclusion: I’d give this product an obvious 10/10, as most people have. But I won’t purchase again. It’s very expensive for a product that I didn’t find myself reaching for very often in 5 years.

Biore Deep Pore Charcoal Cleanser
Status: EMPTY
Conclusion: I discovered that when used in combination with an exfoliating scrub, there is no deeper feeling of clean. I may purchase this in the future, as it was quite a nice product. It just wasn’t something I reached for very often, as my collection of face cleansers is currently ginormous. Perhaps after I widdle it down a bit, I can revisit this one.

As for the rest of my P10P products, I’m hoping to finish them up fairly soon…ish. Hopefully. That MAC lipstick is really going to hold me up though. I’m not sure what I was thinking with that one… I actually just don’t like it on myself. I might just have to cut my losses on that one and switch it out with another product or something.

summer, please | OOTD

You guys, it was warm and wonderful enough outside yesterday to wear shorts. SHORTS.  Do you realize how exciting this is?! Of course, today it’s cloudy and cold and rainy, but still – I wore shorts outside yesterday!

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While I silently judge people who wear their pajamas as real-life clothing outside the house, I’m a big fan of clothes that look and feel like cozy jammies, but clearly are not. These shorts are exactly that – soft, loose, uber comfy, and have a drawstring and elastic waistband, so they’re really great for Game of Thrones feast nights.
This sweater also fits the theme of not-pajamas clothes. It’s my personal favourite, and I’m actually shocked that I don’t wear it every single day. It just goes with everything, and it always adds that carefree, “I don’t give a @#!$” vibe that I dig.

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I was really digging on my makeup yesterday, so here, have a complementary selfie, complete with a product list:

Eyes: Maybelline Color Tattoo Metals in Barely Bronzed as a base, L’Oreal Infallible Eyeshadow in Amber Rush, and the Maybelline Nudes Palette. Maybelline Color Tattoo Leather in Dramatic Black  as eyeliner. Urban Decay Supercurl mascara.
Face: Maybelline Fit Me matte + poreless foundation. NARS Orgasm blush. Wet n’ Wild Reserve Your Cabanada highlighting powder.
Lips: Wet n’ Wild lip liner in Naughty Nude. Maybelline Color Sensational lipstick in Nude List.

OOTD + P10P update:

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This is the definition of GPOY – I looked cute today and I thought the world outside my office should know. I’ve been the proud owner of these magical boots for approximately 55 hours, and we are already deeply in love. They almost didn’t come home with me but I just couldn’t leave them behind, and now we’re going to grow old together. It’ll be a beautiful life.

Project 10 Pan Update #1:
I’ve been doing Project 10 Pan for 11 days now. Not very long, so I’ve not made too much progress but I want to do updates somewhat regularly if only to keep myself accountable.

The Maybelline Color Tattoo, L’Oreal Blackbuster eyeliner, and L’Oreal Miracle Blur eye treatment are well on their way to being all used up. These are the ones I’ve been making a point of putting back into my daily routine. Actually, I’ve been using the NYC bronzer almost daily as well, but don’t seem to be increasing the size of the dent in it. However, it’s only been a week and a half so I think I’m expecting too much. As for the rest of the products, I haven’t been making much of an effort with them. I know, I know – for shame, Stephanie. It’s hard to force yourself to use a product when you know you have other (read: better) options at your fingertips.

I’m thinking I need to get a little container for my makeup counter to put all of my P10P stuff into, because I don’t remember to reach for these products when I’m getting ready. It’s my fault, really, I wake up with no time to spare in the morning and have my routine shaved down to the last second, so anything that slows me down just isn’t going to happen. I value sleep more than I value the luxury of time in the morning, hashbrown sorry not sorry (Kimmy Schmidt anyone?!).