makeup.

There are a lot of celebrity women who are suddenly promoting going makeup-free and living a bare-faced life. All in all this isn’t a bad lesson and is something that needs to be said over and over again to people who are growing up in our filtered, photoshopped, face-tuned world. But I want to talk about it from the perspective of someone who loves makeup, and chooses to do a full face each morning… okay, most mornings.  Whether it means to or not, this movement misrepresents women who do wear makeup on the daily. Promoting a makeup-free lifestyle says more than just “love the skin you’re in,” it also implies that women who put on makeup each day do it for any reason other than just… because they like it. I have yet to meet a woman who hates makeup, yet still takes the time and money to invest in it. If a woman doesn’t want to wear makeup, she won’t – period.

Society make the mistake of thinking women wear makeup because we’re insecure. Boys make the mistake of thinking women wear makeup because we want them to think we’re pretty. Truth is, some of us just like putting stuff on our faces. As a woman who wears her paycheck in the form of matte lipsticks and winged eyeliner, here are some thoughts:

  • Some people do yoga or exercise in the mornings, but I really like taking that time to drink a cup of coffee and put on my makeup. It’s relaxing, it’s not something I have to use too much brain power to accomplish and taking that time to take care of myself sets me up to have a really good morning.
  • It’s my favourite way to express creativity. I’m not an artsy person – I can’t draw, paint, or design anything. I write sometimes but that’s not something I find the time to do a lot. So I take my creative energy out on my face. I like experimenting with different colours, textures and shapes. I like figuring out how to enhance my already usually good skin and bright eyes. It’s important to me that I have this outlet to express different parts of my personality with differently styled makeup looks – it’s fun for me.
  • I very rarely leave my house without at least a little makeup on – BB cream and brow gel for sure – but that’s not an insecurity thing. I don’t have great skin all the time, my eyebrows are funny shapes and I have a really round face that makes me look about 6 years younger than I am. These are all things that I can (and do) change with makeup but I know that there’s nothing wrong with any of it – I accept the fact that my face is not flawless. I have no problem being bare-faced in public but I’ve never been the type of person who likes to feel sloppy. I’m not a sweatpants person, I don’t own any stained t-shirts, and I do not wear running shoes outside of the gym. To me, taking 5 minutes to put on a little bit of makeup goes hand in hand with putting on a pair of jeans instead of wearing your pajama pants to run errands.
  • For the most part, the makeup industry does not pander to the preferences of men anymore. We’re seeing this a lot more with unnatural coloured lipsticks, bold highlights and extreme contour becoming popular. If we wore makeup only because boys liked it, we wouldn’t wear half of what is trendy right now. In my experience, boys don’t like blue lipstick or neon eyeshadow or huge falsies. I own all of those things, I like all of those things and if a man is going to go out of his way to tell me I’d look better without them – byeeeee. This isn’t to please you honey, it’s for me. It’s a small way for me to express who I am to the rest of the world and if who I am that day wants to wear black lipstick and bold eyebrows, well dammit I’m gonna. Sorry, not sorry.

It’s important to be comfortable with who you are, and with what you look like. It’s absolutely wonderful to have total confidence in yourself and be okay facing the word without a good foundation and concealer combination to protect you, and I would never try to discredit that message. But a solid contour game and overdrawn lipstick does not mean I am insecure with who I am. So no, I will not participate in #NoMakeupMonday. I will not post a bare-faced selfie for your natural beauty initiative on Facebook. I will not consider going makeup-free for 1 week. I like wearing makeup; I don’t find it daunting or difficult. I don’t feel pressured to look a certain way, and I don’t find your ,”look at me, I’m not wearing makeup because I’m super brave!” attitude to be at all revolutionary. You’re no different than me, except my eyelids are gold and sparkly, and my lashes hit my glasses when I blink.

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autumn (almost).

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Tea, falling leaves, sweater weather, knit beanies, knit scarves, knitting in general, really… Booties, apples, cinnamon. Oh, and of course, pumpkin everything. Aside from being the main points in my favourite bit by my homegirl Iliza Shlesinger, these are the main staples of Autumn. While I have vehemently expressed my dislike of cold weather, I must admit that, like every other girl between the ages of 15 and 28, I f*cking love Autumn. I love dressing for Autumn – boots, layers, leather, earth tones, sweater so ugly they’re considered fashionable – I’m all about that. As the weather stands right now, it’s not quite cool enough to be in full Autumn mode yet, but I’m preparing. This outfit was a baby step, but I’m so ready to go full force. This black baby doll dress is the most perfect starting point for a million different outfits, and can be taken in so many directions. The long gray duster sweater has quickly become a staple in my wardrobe, and I have loved putting it over nearly every outfit I’ve worn in the last 2 weeks. And those boots – those boots have been with me for many years, as you can tell by the scuffed toes. I paired them with this outfit because they add a slightly grungy vibe, without being overpowering or feeling out of place.

When it comes to seasons in regards to makeup, Autumn reigns supreme. Smoky shadows, intense contour, and – my personal favourite – incredible lip colours. This one in particular is a combination of MAC’s Heroine and Beet lip liners, Revlon’s Black Cherry lipstick, and the new Maybelline Color Blur lip crayon in Berry Misbehaving. In all honesty, I think I could sit at my vanity and play with lip combinations all day.

Happy almost-Autumn, everyone. Sip on that hot apple cider, eat pumpkin pie to gain your winter insulation, and get cozy if it kills you, dammit!

Photo Diary | July 2015

It is insane how easy it is to not do something. To procrastinate and put it off until you almost don’t even want to do it anymore. Of course, I am talking about me and what a lousy blogger I am. I kept making excuses for not posting and blaming my sudden lack of creativity, or the fact that it’s summer and I’m too busy having bonfires and drinking beer to write a blog post.

So now that it’s almost mid-August, I thought it would be supremely appropriate to post a bunch of photos from the month of July… starting with one from June, obviously.

001 June 26 | My baby brother graduated high school
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002 July 1 | Happy Canada Day
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003 July 4 | Girls night ft. sushi
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004 July 4 | Girls night continued ft. Magic Mike + so much wine
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005 July 9 | Boardwalkin’
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006 July 14 | The prettiest sunset you ever did see #nofilter #forrealzies
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007 July 16 | Concert + rain
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008 July 18 | I drove and drove, but I couldn’t find the end
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009 July 24 | What does it mean when people compliment “my aesthetic”?
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010 July 28 | Even the worst storms gotta end
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I’m going to make a real effort to be back, and post regularly. I have lots of ideas, I’m just bad at follow-through sometimes.

See you soon, blog.

F A V O U R I T E S

Unless you’re a YouTube beauty vlogger, no one ever asks you, “Hey, what’s your favourite stuff right now?”, which I think is completely unfair. The amount of times I text people about insignificant things that like, ‘totally changed my life for reals though’ is ridiculous. So, while I sip wine out of a My Little Pony mug, here, have a blog post. IMG_5288Just Peachy by David’s Tea
 This tea actually came out last year in David’s Tea’s summer collection. Iced peach tea is my favourite thing to drink in the summertime, like, I can’t even tell you how much of this I could drink in a day. I was really bummed when they decided not to bring it back this year, but by some miracle 2014 Stephanie must have known this would happen, and I discovered a full cannister last month! So now I can spend another summer sipping on this and I’m probably more excited than I should be. IMG_5285Glamoflage by Hard CandyReady, Set Gorgeous by Covergirl, and Smooth Skin BB Radiance Powder by NYC
After roughly 10 years of doing makeup daily, I have finally discovered my number one, holy grail foundation combination. Despite the ridiculous names (I mean really, Glamoflage? Ready, Set, Gorgeous? Where are your standards, cosmetics companies?), I’m obsessed – for real, not in a ‘OMG I’m obsessed JK I’ll forget about this in a week’ kind of way. I have never used a better combination of foundation products – it’s not heavy, it lets my skin breathe while still having enough coverage to even out my skin tone, and the colour basically melts into my skin. It’s amazing. The best part, though? All 3 of these products can be purchased at the drugstore for under $17. Insanity! IMG_5283Mint Cocoa Crunch Mints by Saybon
Let me preface this by saying that I think the combination of mint and chocolate is straight out of hell. It’s just so wrong. These, however… I honestly don’t know what it is. These are so good. I can’t stop; We have a dish of them sitting in my office and it’s right next to my desk -the struggle is real, let me tell you. IMG_5289Romper by WalMart (I know, I was surprised too)
This is not new or revolutionary. It’s summer, it’s the season of rompers. I’ve struggled with this trend since it’s conception – I liked the idea but couldn’t get past the fact that it reminded me of a baby’s onesie. The fact that I’m 5’0 on a good day and have enough trouble looking my age is it is lead me to decidethat this trend wasn’t for me. However this year, I tried a few and was disappointed – they all seemed to be too small in the shorts-part and too poofy in the top part. But then one day, strolling through WalMart aimlessly, as you do, I happened upon this one. It was a different style from the ones I had been trying so I figured, “hey, it’s $12 – what’s the worst that could happen?” So I took it home with me and guess what? Now I have a romper that works on my awkward, boyish body. Now if I could just figure out a simpler way to pee while wearing it…IMG_5308Overcast
I’m just gonna come out and say it – I hate the iTunes podcast app. I hate it. It’s not user-friendly, and it does this thing where it will start playing the podcasts, but with no audio. What?! That’s the whole point! This app has been a lifesaver – Maybe not literally, but I love my podcasts so it’s definitely been really great to have. It works with iTunes so it has all the same podcasts, and gets new episodes at the same time, it’s just a different interface. Since switching to Overcast, I haven’t had any issues. I filed away the iTunes podcast app in my “stupid” folder and haven’t looked back since. IMG_1793Imagine Dragons
Earlier this month, I had the absolute pleasure of taking my brother to see his favourite band live. Walking into a concert venue and feeling the energy in the building – that’s my happy place. That’s the best moment to be in, no matter the band that’s playing. If you have the opportunity to go see Imagine Dragons live, take it. Even if you don’t really like them, just go. It was a mind-blowing concert. They perform so well, their light show was absolutely incredible, and I have dubbed them the Unofficial Kings of Drum Solos (a very prestigious award in my world – drummers are my favourites). Not to mention, Dan Reynolds got that white boy groove so, you have to go just to see him dance around during Shots.

There – my favourites. Thank you for letting me be narcissistic and talk about the random crap that I think is interesting.

Hey There, Stranger

Hi Blog, it’s been a minute.

I was computer-less for a few weeks, and therefore unable to tend to the blog. Not being able to hang out here and post honestly made me really anxious, and I didn’t like it! While I could still check in and read comments and stuff, it’s not the same as sitting down with your laptop and actually being able to write a post. That said, you would think I used my computer-less time to draft up a bunch of really awesome blog posts, wouldn’t you? The answer to that would be, uh… no. Oops!

To ease myself back into the wonderful world of blogging, I thought I would start with something easy – a Project 10 Pan update, as I have actually made some decent progress!

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L’Oreal Revitalift Miracle Blur Eye
Status: EMPTY
Conclusion: Does this product actually do anything? I should read some reviews and see if people actually saw results. Perhaps it’s just not meant for a person with my skin type? I’d be curious to know.

OSiS+ Dust It Mattifying Powder
Status: EMPTY
Conclusion: I think it would be a lovely product for someone with thicker hair than me. While normally, I don’t get a lot of product build up, this powder made my hair feel gross after a single use. Again, I think it’s just not targeted towards someone with my particular hair type.

NARS Orgasm Blush
Status: EMPTY
(I will admit, it broke. I went on an overnight trip last weekend, took this with me, and when I got home, most of it was shattered. I finished off the last usable pieces this week.)
Conclusion: I’d give this product an obvious 10/10, as most people have. But I won’t purchase again. It’s very expensive for a product that I didn’t find myself reaching for very often in 5 years.

Biore Deep Pore Charcoal Cleanser
Status: EMPTY
Conclusion: I discovered that when used in combination with an exfoliating scrub, there is no deeper feeling of clean. I may purchase this in the future, as it was quite a nice product. It just wasn’t something I reached for very often, as my collection of face cleansers is currently ginormous. Perhaps after I widdle it down a bit, I can revisit this one.

As for the rest of my P10P products, I’m hoping to finish them up fairly soon…ish. Hopefully. That MAC lipstick is really going to hold me up though. I’m not sure what I was thinking with that one… I actually just don’t like it on myself. I might just have to cut my losses on that one and switch it out with another product or something.

summer, please | OOTD

You guys, it was warm and wonderful enough outside yesterday to wear shorts. SHORTS.  Do you realize how exciting this is?! Of course, today it’s cloudy and cold and rainy, but still – I wore shorts outside yesterday!

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While I silently judge people who wear their pajamas as real-life clothing outside the house, I’m a big fan of clothes that look and feel like cozy jammies, but clearly are not. These shorts are exactly that – soft, loose, uber comfy, and have a drawstring and elastic waistband, so they’re really great for Game of Thrones feast nights.
This sweater also fits the theme of not-pajamas clothes. It’s my personal favourite, and I’m actually shocked that I don’t wear it every single day. It just goes with everything, and it always adds that carefree, “I don’t give a @#!$” vibe that I dig.

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I was really digging on my makeup yesterday, so here, have a complementary selfie, complete with a product list:

Eyes: Maybelline Color Tattoo Metals in Barely Bronzed as a base, L’Oreal Infallible Eyeshadow in Amber Rush, and the Maybelline Nudes Palette. Maybelline Color Tattoo Leather in Dramatic Black  as eyeliner. Urban Decay Supercurl mascara.
Face: Maybelline Fit Me matte + poreless foundation. NARS Orgasm blush. Wet n’ Wild Reserve Your Cabanada highlighting powder.
Lips: Wet n’ Wild lip liner in Naughty Nude. Maybelline Color Sensational lipstick in Nude List.

OOTD + P10P update:

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This is the definition of GPOY – I looked cute today and I thought the world outside my office should know. I’ve been the proud owner of these magical boots for approximately 55 hours, and we are already deeply in love. They almost didn’t come home with me but I just couldn’t leave them behind, and now we’re going to grow old together. It’ll be a beautiful life.

Project 10 Pan Update #1:
I’ve been doing Project 10 Pan for 11 days now. Not very long, so I’ve not made too much progress but I want to do updates somewhat regularly if only to keep myself accountable.

The Maybelline Color Tattoo, L’Oreal Blackbuster eyeliner, and L’Oreal Miracle Blur eye treatment are well on their way to being all used up. These are the ones I’ve been making a point of putting back into my daily routine. Actually, I’ve been using the NYC bronzer almost daily as well, but don’t seem to be increasing the size of the dent in it. However, it’s only been a week and a half so I think I’m expecting too much. As for the rest of the products, I haven’t been making much of an effort with them. I know, I know – for shame, Stephanie. It’s hard to force yourself to use a product when you know you have other (read: better) options at your fingertips.

I’m thinking I need to get a little container for my makeup counter to put all of my P10P stuff into, because I don’t remember to reach for these products when I’m getting ready. It’s my fault, really, I wake up with no time to spare in the morning and have my routine shaved down to the last second, so anything that slows me down just isn’t going to happen. I value sleep more than I value the luxury of time in the morning, hashbrown sorry not sorry (Kimmy Schmidt anyone?!).

Project: 10 Pan 2.0

Hi, my name is Stephanie, and I have a problem. I am a makeup addict. I’ve been wearing makeup regularly since I was 13 and since then, my hobby has exploded into a full-blown obsession. I watch beauty videos on the daily, follow tons of makeup and beauty blogs, and subscribe to /r/makeupaddiction. I absorb so much makeup related content, and it just makes me want to blow all the cash in my wallet on new finds. But I’m also a makeup hoarder, and it’s now gotten to a point where I’m just overwhelmed. I wake up in the morning and don’t even want to bother with any of the fun stuff because there’s just too much.
So I’ve decided to do something about it – Namely, get myself back on the Project 10 Pan wagon. I started a Project 10 Pan a few years ago, and failed miserably. It was more of a Project 10 Pain, to be honest. If you don’t know, Project 10 Pan is something that beauty addicts like myself put ourselves through when we feel our makeup collection is out of control. You pick 10 products and vow to use them all up before you allow yourself to purchase any new makeup. When I did it previously, I went about it entirely wrong. I failed to destash beforehand, I used poorly chosen products, and I didn’t set out proper rules for myself. So this is my master post, and I’ll post updates to track my progress.

DESTASHING:
When I dyed my hair red a few months ago, I went through all of my lip product to figure out what worked and what no longer did. Being pale with blonde hair gave me a blank canvas,  so no lip colour was off limits. However that is not the case with the bright red I’ve decided is worth the ridiculous upkeep. I destached and gave away lip products I would no longer wear, and I figured since I started, I might as well keep going. I threw away expired products and gave away what was still usable, just not for me anymore. What I’m left with is a still-significant amount of makeup that works with my current skintype, tone, and hair colour.

RULES:
Everyone has their own set or rules and restrictions for a P10P, so there’s really no specific guideline to follow. I’m going to go on a low/no buy for the duration of the challenge. Last time I did this, I gave myself a specific time-frame in which I had to use all of the products I’d chosen, and it put an unnecessary pressure on the experience. Because of that, I’m going to give myself strict rules, but without the added strain of a specific time period. It’ll take however long it takes.
I will not be buying any new products for the duration of the P10P. This includes limited edition stuff (unless the rumours of a Disney Villains collection at Sephora are true – on the off chance that a Jafar collection is made, gurl. I cannot be held responsible for the damage I will cause at Sephora). However, I will allow myself to repurchase necessary basics. These are the Annabelle Stay Sharp eyeliner in black, Maybelline Great Lash mascara in black, and Maybelline Fit Me foundation. These are basics, things I use every day, and won’t break the bank so I’ll still be saving money I would otherwise blow on other products.
I will potentially allow myself the purchase of a brow product – while I do have one or two in my stash, I’m not sure it’s enough to get me to the end of my P10P, and a girl’s gotta have her brows done, you know?

THE PRODUCTS:
Now this is the fun part. I think my biggest mistake in my previous P10P attempt was choosing the wrong products. I failed to destash my collection before starting, which meant I was still holding on to unflattering products, or things I just didn’t have use for. For some reason, I decided that those products would be perfect candidates for P10P. I’d finally be getting rid of them, yay! However, I ended up getting frustrated because they were just unwearable for me, ergo I just didn’t wear them. You see where I have issues?

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1) NYC Sun n’ Bronze Bronzing Powder: This product is two things I dislike in face products – warm toned, and shimmery. I much prefer a matte finish to my face product and that’s not something that this offers. It was my first venture into the world of bronzer and as you can see, I absolutely got some good use out of it. It’s a cheap product so it was great for practice. I’m thinking that with summer and sunshine on the way, I can work the warm tones and shimmer in with the rest of my face.

2) MAC Pink Nouveau lipstick: Ah, my first-ever MAC product. This baby holds a special place in my heart and so it’s stayed with me all this time. However, now I think it’s time to cut the cord and use it up. It’s not my favourite colour, I’m not much of a pink lipstick person, and this is like Barbie’s ultimate dream shade. I’ve been meaning to try this lipstick out with different liners and make it work, so I’m finally going to get around to that now that I’m back on the P10P wagon.

3) Maybelline Color Tattoo Metals in Barely Bronzed: These shadows are great, actually. I have 5 of them, and I use them regularly. This one was a part of my every day routine for quite a while, but has fallen to the wayside in recent months. There’s not a lot of product left, and I would like to use it up before it dries out, so into the P10P basket it goes.

4) NARS Orgasm blush: I purchased this when I was starting to get into high end makeup. It was a cult favourite, beauty vloggers swore it looked good on every single person ever, and the tongue-in-cheek name made it totally worth the splurge. It’s had a good run, but I’ve come to realize that I’m not much of a blush person. I just don’t like the look on myself.

5)L’Oreal The Infalliable Blackbuster Liquid Eyeliner: This product is in here because time is a factor. I hate liquid eyeliner. I’m sorry, but I just do. I don’t have the patience to sit down and carefully make perfect lines when I can get a perfectly fine eyeliner look with a pencil in 30 seconds. However this product is wonderful for liquid liner failures like myself. It’s easily controlled and goes on very evenly. I just don’t reach for it simply because it takes more time than my pencils. I do want to use this product up before it goes rancid on me and gives me an eye infection, so I figure I better give myself a push to avoid that situation.

6) Maybelline Whisper in Made-It Mauve: This was the first real, true My Lips But Better lipstick I ever found. …However, it was immediately followed by about 5 MLBB lip products that I like a thousand times better. Maybelline lipsticks are probably my favourite (after MAC, that is), but I received the Fresh Sugar Lip set for Christmas and Honey immediately knocked this lipstick off of it’s pedestal. I’m sorry Maybelline, it’s not you… It’s me. Really.

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7) L’Oreal Miracle Blur Eye Treatment: This was actually a hand-me-down from my mom. I think it’s a fine product, but it doesn’t do enough for me to actually remember to use it. It’s just one of those things I’d like to see emptied before I toss it out.
8) Biore Deep Pore Charcoal Cleanser: This is a majestic beast of a cleanser. Seriously, it’s an amazing product. It’s been great for oil control since my skin decided it wants to try being oily after 23 years, and it kicks acne breakouts right in the butt. So what’s it doing on my P10P list? I find the tingly, cooling sensation much too overwhelming. My skin has never been sensitive before but this stuff just irritates it quite a lot. However I do love Biore’s charcoal mask, it’s quite lovely.

9) St. Ives Mineral Clay Firming Mask: This is a product I used to use religiously, and actually I think it was included in my last P10P, and after I used it up I went out and purchased another tube. Why? Because I do like it – I just don’t make enough time to use it. It requires about 10 minutes to firm up and do it’s thing before you rinse it off. I’m honestly too lazy to give it that much time, so I just skip it more often than not.

10) OSIS+ Dust It: A hairdresser used this on me once and I was shocked by how much lift it gave my hair. However, now that my hair is red and I’m training it to be washed less, this product leaves far too much of a build up in my hair. It makes it feel dirty and matted after day 2, and I just don’t need that kind of negativity in my life.

So there you have it. Congratulations if you made it this far (why did you read this far? Seriously, why? Go outside). I’ll post semi-regular updates, mostly for my own tracking purposes, but also because maybe if I post it somewhere public, my pride and stubbornness will take over and force me to follow through this time. We can hope, can’t we?